What to do about it

    I'm writing because I've found it difficult to just talk. But I need you to know where I'm at. 
     In business the Lord's been sending more jobs. There seems to be more very happy customers, which hasn't always been the case in years past.
    I have a schedule that is pretty open, when not in the middle of a project. 
    I realize that luxury is because Anne is a fairly high earner. She is planning on retiring in another two years.
    The preaching of our pastor just really nails me, and I think I would be condemned if I really saw how much I failed my master. But he tells me I'm his son so I keep believing. 
     I think there is growth (there must be), that it truly is him that is living here. That I fail him daily, but he is bringing me more into this reality, by his grace. 
    There's a probability of deceiving ourselves. And that is certainly my case... so I'm writing my brother whom I've neglected... please forgive me. I'm hoping we can dialog at one point. I'm also hoping that I can attend morning meetings... you would know if that would be possible. I am somewhat dependent on you for that. If there is something needed for that, which is lacking, I'm happy to render what is required, anything all. Here I am if you want to respond. I love you, our Pastor, everyone in our Church, just need to show it!

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